STOMME DINGEN DOEN. OP HET TOPJE VAN DE WERELD STAAN EN ER DAN KEIHARD AF KLETTEREN. SOMS VOELT VALLEN ALS VLIEGEN. IK BEN ER IN IEDER GEVAL GEWEEST. DAARBOVEN.

I’m heartless. I’m loveless. I’m hopeless. I’m true.

Desperate hearts for desperate times, a broken will and better lies.

you & me, down and blue.

we’re through.

Don't you trust the scientist, he says "life-is-like-a-wineglass" as he spills his drink.

Breathe and let go I don't give a flying fuck anymore.

mijn hoofd staat op de automatische piloot, de weg draait onder me vandaan en kilometers stijgen naar mijn hoofd. mijn voet drukt het gas zo hard weg dat ik bang ben dat mijn voet verdwijnt in het asfalt onder me. ik betwijfel of ik ooit nog zou willen stoppen & op dit moment lijkt eindeloos vooruit een betere optie dan alles wat er om me heen ligt te wachten.

You took the worst of me, but you left and now I’m free.

Je trapt de wereld onder mijn voeten uit. Keert mijn ingewanden binnenstebuiten en laat mijn ogen overstromen. Er zijn draadjes in mijn hoofd die niet meer aansluiten en alle sneeuwvlokken voelen als bevroren tranen op mijn blauwe huid. De wereld huilt om je...

Wordt wakker.

We could kill frustration

or find truth in rhymes

but nothing suits me more

than to stare in your eyes.

We had the weights but measured them wrong.

LEVEN. OM HET EVEN. DE TOUWTJES AAN ELKAAR KNOPEN. KNOPEN DOORHAKKEN.

HAKKEN JE NA 21 JAAR EIGEN MAKEN. MAKEN DAT JE WEGKOMT.

Like these autumn leaves I don't have nothing to hold.

Handsome smile, wearing handsome shoes. Too young to say, though I swear he knew.

Autumn leaves will fade now. That smile I lost, well I've found somehow,

All these autumn leaves are yours tonight.

Its a coma baby. Get into me.

Hooked on all the black clouds you keep breathing.

You've got me in a headlock, over heels in bed all day.

Lungs filled with cigarettes, warnings won't make us blush.

spill the truth all over me.

I was all you ever wanted.

Come get to me.

winterisjustaseasonthatwillpass,justlikeyou.

I've been feeding on dead leaves. Kicking myself through the streets, whispering your name.

These closets have been closed too long; there's no more room for your skeletons.

Love. The kind that kills and scars and make you kneel and crawl to hell and back. The words that slit your throat and make you think of love as the new black, as what you lack. Love.

.iamwhoiam.

Baby, ill be back for summertime. For now, just let me sleep through these grey 365day old days they like to call winter.

Feed me sunbeams between the falling leaves and snow. My skully babybear will learn to smile.

The artwork was brutally stolen from; Kulik Larissa.

'de rest komt later wel'

Ik vraag me af wanneer het komt.

I spoke too soon, it seems, for you made a home in my dreams.

While I slept you kept running yourself through my head,

Like you wanted to say "I won't be dead yet."

I said, "You don't understand. They stole it; love's been so unfair to me."

&

Love swept in like a storm and ripped the hinges from the doors.

Love poured in like a flood, I couldn't stop it anymore. I will not be drowned."

"Lover, come and hold me, I am terribly afraid.

While you're shouting at the stars, my scars are not fading away."

You're wearing a necklace made of hearts, that you'd dragged through the mud & I guess I wasn't quite sure what to say to you. You said, darling, you're the only one on earth I want to have it, but now I'm not so sure that was true, after the hell you put it through.

Bruises. I tried to do headstands for you

Everytime I fell on you.

Everytime I fell for you.

I got bruises on my knees for you

And grass stains on my knees for you

Got holes in my new jeans for you.

I'm just head over heels in love with the past. oldskool.

Handwritten scribbles on white lined pages dropped in pink envelopes,

trusted to postage due service, falling flat faced on my doormat.

♡

I love today. It was everything, me & my lungs needed.

if my lungs still let me breathe.

if my lungs still let me breathe.

If only my lungs could let me breathe,

Say hello to oxygen before it has to leave me.

I won't be sleeping tonight.

These paper lungs are so fragile and sore.

Please airways, let me breathe.

I can not take it anymore!

This pretty much covers lunch & dinner today.

Wide awake, my mistake, so predictable.

You were fake, I was great, nothing personal.

I'm walking, who's laughing now?

I'm wasted, wasting time.

A pretty face but the chase ain't worth the prize.

You're falling, who's crashing now?

Don't be sentimental, no. This is love is accidental, so?

Give it up, this was never meant to be more than a memory for you.

I'm moving on...

I WOKE UP THINKING YOU WERE STILL ALIVE. NOW THIS DAY FEELS SO DAMN DEAD TO ME.

VRAGEN ZONDER ANTWOORDEN IN EEN HOOFD WAT NIET MEER DRAAIEN WIL. IK LACH DE WERELD TOE, GLIMLACH, JE VOELT ZWAAR ALS EEN BAKSTEEN DIE WIL DANSEN IN DE MUUR WAAR FOTOLIJSTJES JE NOG LEVEND KONDEN FRAMEN. VANNACHT HEB IK AL JE SPULLEN INGEPAKT, EEN DOOS STOND JE NOG NOOIT ZO GOED. VERGETEN KAN IK NIET. DOORGAAN IS EEN KRACHT DIE VOELT ALS EEN KOM LAUWE SOEP WAARIN HET ZOUT VERGETEN IS. ER WAREN NOG ZOVEEL VERHALEN OM HERINNERINGEN VAN TE MAKEN. ALS DE TIJD ALLE WONDEN HEELT, HEB IK ALLEEN HET TEGENDEEL. SINDS JIJ WEG BENT HEB IK NIETS MEER GEDAAN DAN KAPOT LATEN GAAN, DOOD LATEN BLOEIEN, VERGETEN & OPMAKEN.

IEDERE VLINDER IS NOG STEEDS DIE ALLERLAATSTE ZONNESTRAAL DIE MIJN TRANENTUIN BESMEURD MET LEVEN.

dont mind me hanging from the rain pipes baby. you made yourself far to hard to be obvious. the ambulance calling for oxygen in the night.

shitfuck. assface. doucebag.

liar.

Sometimes love isn't about how much someone suits you,

but how much you're willing to change to suit them.

Alexisonfire - Rough hands.

Soms, is het niet slim om de liefde van je leven in kinderschoenen te ontmoeten.

Maar zeg nou zelf,

Wie doet me wat. ?

dead bird by ROA.

I geek out over...

Photography. Polaroids. Typography. Blogs. Illustration.. Film. Mmmac Computers. Iphone 4. Pink. Sweets. Pie. Cupcakes. Love. Pillows. Tattoo. Music. Design. Art. Books. Camera. Nail polish. Text. ELLE. Magazine. Beard. Motor. Car. Rollerskates. Food. Men. Life. Hope. Docu. Shower. Shoes. Clothing. Necklaces. Friends. Little sister. Dog. Cat. Dancing. Drinking. Smoking. Coffee. Lyrics. Scream. Faith. Holding on. Photoframes. Chaos. Nature. Clouds. Boat. Swim. Water. Dreams. Heart. Sky. Airplanes. Balloon. Butterfly. Family. Breathtaking. D5. Language. Foreign. World. Stars. Universe.

there is no order, there is just me & I AM original.

De traagheid van begrip. Mensen die nooit onder mijn huid zullen kruipen. Dagdromen die ik niet waar zal maken, zijn daarom niet minder briljant. Figuren die ik nooit zal accepteren, blijven een nare vlek op mijn wereld. Verliezen is ook winnen, eternal optimism. Leer me een geheim verklappen en een hand vasthouden zonder safety line. Ik zie de wereld door een halfvol glas, mijn gedachten zijn halfleeg. endless contradictions. er is ruimte genoeg, maar...

There's always something..

believe.

lover.

life.

Er was een tijd dat ik heel content was met 1eigen zijn, jongens waren maar 6 letters op papier, een film die ik ooit eens had gezien, een vage herinnering van tijden die in mijn dagboek staan. Verleden. Toen ik liefde nog spelde met een HOOFDLETTER. Tot jij met je bolle toet in beeld kwam. Nu zijn er dagen van dromen, fladderen en keiharde dalen. Ik snap er eigenlijk niets van.

Ik wil weer fijn zijn, in mijn pels. Omdat dat ook mooi is. ALLEEN. Zo zonder iemand, zonder jou. Fijn. Een enkeltje naar zonderjou, alstuliefd?

Be. Still. My. Heart.

no silly, I was kiddin, just keep on BOOMING!

You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted black
Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right back
Well, it takes one to know one, kid, I think you've got it bad
But what's so easy in the evening by the morning's such a drag

I got a flask inside my pocket, we can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same
We might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain
But what was normal in the evening by the morning seems insane.

BrightEyes - Lua

Bricks & Broken glass.

This pretty much covers my Sunday.

I tend to forget 'Happy' as easily as you forget you breathe.

Ik kijk nergens meer van op, hij kijkt me niet meer aan.

Peel back my horizon, bend the room. I want to go to heaven for the weather, but hell for the company

We'll learn to ✈ with broken wings.

My lips red & sore, not so much for kissing anymore.

I left my clothes back home for you, the weather made me smile.

Baby, cover me like a blanket.

a dive to the ground sometimes feels like flying.

I found a spider in the corner of my eye.

“love is passion, obsession, something you cant live without, theres no sense living your life without this, to make the journey and not fall deeply in love, no you haven’t lived a life at all. but you have to try, because if you haven’t tried you haven’t lived.”

34 HOURS.

NO SLEEP.

LONDON.

BUSRIDES

AIRPLANES.

LOVE & COFFEE.

BROKENHEARTS

and cigarettes.

you cant feel this weight all eyes on me now, its all accidents.

that you have never seen skin that shade of blue before or felt breath that cold.

that it never touched you in quite the same way

it all falls down one by one, it all adds up.

i thought that you knew, it never touches soft enough

and you would never let me give up no matter how much i wanted to

and someday you will know...

that all of my sleepless nights and tear stained pillows were never meant for you to understand

and even though it seems like im always falling apart

im still standing on these broken legs just hold on. just hold on. im still living at all cost

LOVE LET ME GO.

This is our last kiss so kiss hard.

& they all got knives drawn! One by one, another one down. With fingertips gleaming in artificial light, just a few more keystrokes, just a few more. Anonymity has never suited someone so well, and every one's a critic with a message board. These things do hurt, keep on choking untill the words stop, I will be your signature.

These things do hurt, hope you are proud of your self.

It feels kinda funny, you under my skin.